Before following Jesus, my identity was deeply rooted in the approval of others. Even after my conversion, I was tempted to find my identity in my career as a nurse. I was only valuable to God if I used those specific skills to help people.
Today I can confidently share that while God allowed me to acquire nursing skills, my joy and worth aren’t found in those skills. Real joy is found in using what I’ve been given, like my nursing career, as a vehicle to share the eternal hope I have in Christ with the people I serve.
It took a mission trip to South Asia with East-West where we evangelized from one unreached village for me to learn this valuable lesson. In the midst of mountain views so beautiful they brought me to tears, I experienced a piece of Heaven laboring with my brothers and sisters in Christ to simply share the gospel.
When I got home, I processed this trip and started praying through what was next in my life. It was hard being back in America. Everything in me desired to hop on a plane and go back. It was then that the Lord presented me with an unexpected opportunity to participate in East-West’s church planting residency.
This would have terrified me a year ago, but through this residency, God constantly reminds me that I don’t have to be an eloquent speaker to be able to share the gospel and be used for His glory (Exodus 4:10-12). Being Christ’s Ambassador is a part of my identity and why I am here (2 Corinthians 5:20).
This residency program and the community I’ve found through it shatters my perspective when it comes to following Christ. We’re constantly reminded that our spiritual resume isn’t an indication of faithfulness. Faithfulness is more about displaying Christ’s character and being available and obedient to share the gospel through our simple daily interactions.
My team weekly goes out together to share the gospel door-to-door. This was something I was anxious about at first, but God has replaced that anxiety with the fulfillment of being on mission wherever I am. He allows me to witness the fruit produced from going out in my city and reminds me that we can truly make a difference for Christ.
Through it all, I am realizing how big God really is, and I’m getting to experience his love in deeper ways as I obey his Great Commission.
Today I still struggle at times with feelings of inadequacy when it comes to being used for God’s kingdom. Then I’m reminded, again, that it is nothing of my own doing. It is through the power of Christ in me. And it’s through His power in you that you, too, can be a part of his mission.